If there ever was a song, hidden deep down in my soul, needing to find its way to the surface to the light, it has to be now at three in the morning.
I don’t think I have ever been as bloody tired and sleepy, yet my mind will not stop, or even slow down tonight. I have taken my meds, so don’t go there friends! I don’t know what is wrong with the old girl tonight, but I feel like I am on a gerbil wheel and the thing is flying.
Most days I don’t do half what I did today. I washed clothes, carried a plat downtown to have it copied at my Real Estate ladies office, went out to the house and cleaned all the tops of the kitchen cabinets (inside and out), and came back to this house to clean up the kitchen.
In a few hours I have to paint all the furniture I plan on keeping in the move out to the other property. I am so looking forward to that move. I go out to that house and I feel so different. I enjoy living out there so much. I look forward to making it our home. I am going to make our bedroom a cool, enjoyable place to retreat. The master bath will be a spa with candles and deep rich towels and perfumed soaps. A bottle of bubbles will be on the side of the tub with a glass for me….and if he wants to join me, that’s okay….and if not, it’s up to him. It is going to be five o’clock somewhere everyday for me. That is going to be my one hour dedicated to me and my hour. I will soak, pray, meditate, listen to my music and relax to be thankful for what I have in this world.
Goals are things I hope to accomplish….but if we don’t put them down, they are only dreams in the air. My goals for the up-coming five months go like this:
1. Get up early and read my Bible, pray, exercise.
2. Shower, dress in business attire, FULL make-up & hair fixed.
3. Full breakfast=Protein Drink
4. Write for four hours…Monday – Thursday
5. 2pm -4pm lunch break=Protein Drink
6. Walk or ride bike 30 minutes outside!! Soak in the tub…
7. Friday, clean house all day
8. Saturday, clean yards all day
9. Sunday, go to church all day
10. Only eat light at night….and keep a track of what you ate all day. Make sure I eat enough. No Sugar!! No stupid carbs…but good carbs.
I am going to be happy, and I am going to be satisfied. I have a choice and I have accepted this is how it is going to be. I want things to be different, and if they are going to be, it starts with me. If I am going to be looking different when we board that plane February 28, 2014, then I have to do something about it now. I know what I have to do, and now is the start.
Wish me well….those two days in Dallas should be interesting. This is the motivation for my change. I know I need to and the thoughts of seeing those people again, this big, just makes me shiver. I want to be thinner than they have ever seen me, and with God’s help I can do this. I know it won’t be easy, but it will be so worth it. I will say my devotions daily and read my Bible on my weight loss, and with God’s guiding hand, I can do it.
I am not putting a pound amount on this, I am leaving it in the Lord’s hands. He will guide me and I put ME in His hands. I know that I need HIS help. I am asking Him for help. I am so helpless without Him.
You will see pictures of me along the way…and I will post how I am doing each week: good, bad or otherwise.
Please pray for me. I am going to need it.