The doctor said he thought it would just take time for me to get through this pain in my chest. My breast reconstruction is nothing but a ‘pain’.
I did go to my plastic surgeon on Monday, and I had to go back again today by 9am to find out why I was having excruciating pain in my breasts!! I mean I was crying out loud, with tears running down my face, and declaring I didn’t care if I had boobs or not! This is now bad it was today!! When I got to the doctor’s office, I was not in the best of moods, and Dr. Robinson took a look at them both and said this is what it takes to get a set of new breasts. I had to suck it up and be strong….not in those words, but this is what it amounted to.
I was ready to tell him to take me across the road to the hospital, take the blame expander out, and we would forget my cantaloupe size boobs. I would handle putting in a size D false boob every day to get out of this much pain!! He wants me to realize what he had to do to reconstruct my breasts, and he explained what he did to keep the expander in place. That is what I feel sewn into my chest wall. I can feel it. When he starts pumping them up, I am going to be in this much pain, or more. I don’t know if I can stand it. I may go for kumquat instead of cantaloupes.
So Pain is going to be my best friend for the next six or seven months. I may not get my entire boobs finished until Christmas. This just gives me more time to lose this weight. I have to get outside and walk or I am not going to lose anything but more time.
Prayers and dreams are great, but I have to put action behind my losing weight.
Thanks for listening to my VENT for the night……..